Thursday, November 25, 2010

Couldn't Stay Away!

 I tried to stay away, I really did. I had no intentions of posting anything today. No way! It's a holiday and I just wasn't gonna do it. But let me tell you, this post is right up there with everything else I wasn't gonna do today. Um-Hum, I'm totally disappointed in me right now. I had the pep talk. You know the one. I'm not eating more than I should. One piece of pumpkin pie ( it was sooo good) and since I made two of them from scratch, I had to have one piece from each pie just to be sure they were equal in all their goodness and could be served to the guests). Then who has pumpkin pie without homemade whipped cream? Someone smarter than me with a smaller waistline that's who. But  the whipped cream was so perfect, I was actually eyeballing my hazelnut flavored coffee for the possibility of just a dollop or two. I'm telling you people, there is just no end to my weaknesses, so now I'm completely consumed with guilt and about to panic. If I don't pull it together and get on the treadmill in the next hour or so, it will be too late. Those pies will have their way with me and I'll be changing the profile pic for sure. But that's not all that's been going on today. Oh no. You see, I felt a little down after dinner. There I was in the midst of self loathing, stuffed, sleepy, and guilty when suddenly I started questioning all my choices. Yep, right down to my WIP, which I might add, I have not had a moment to even open the file containing WIP for nearly a week.  I've also had very little time to read blogs, or read at all. I was too busy baking those damned pumpkin pies among other things. So I started to wonder if I should even be writing anything at all. I mean, it takes a really strong person to be a writer. And I couldn't even hold true to the level of self discipline I had promised myself I would have today. So I came home from my mother's, put away the whipped cream, and opened my file. By the end of the first chapter, I remembered why I write. And I knew then that I had just been missing it and without it, I'm not me-bloated or not. That's when I knew that writing is a necessity, not a choice. It's a bubble of inspiration that can never be explained to someone who doesn't do it. But until that pen meets the paper, or those fingers meet the keys, it almost hurts when you can't do it. Then again I may have a pie cramp coming on, I don't know. But I do know I'm supposed to be here, just like you're supposed to be here. Right here with all of us-dreaming, laughing, learning, loving, and writing all throughout this journey. And I'm thankful for every single step, every single one of you, and I'm also thankful that my daughter just ate the last piece of pumpkin pie. Happy Thanksgiving! I'm headed for the treadmill;)


  1. No kidding! Ugh, I ate way too much. Glad you found your title. I was just doing an Amazon search on Sapphire and found it's taken. SO I'm back to the drawing board.
    I love pumpkin pie .... eating it for breakfast now. :)

  2. Thank goodness my husband and I ate out and only brought 2 peices of pie home, and ate it for breakfast!

    But yes! You rediscovered the reason why you write. If you ever doubt it, you only have to either be away from it for a while (a break is really good for you), or read something that you've written, and think--wow, did I write that??

    Good post, T.!

  3. Thanks for sharing that with us. I think we all go through days where we questions what we're doing and why. Is it any good? Is it worth it? Then, like you did, we read back through and fall in love with our characters again.

    Glad you found your love again and best of luck!

  4. A pie cramp! I love it, that's exactly the right phrase.

    Delighted that you had that moment where you remember exactly why you're doing what you're doing. I think one of the wonderful things about writers is that you get to fall in love over and over again, with new books, new characters, with the ending you just thought up, with new titles, new ideas...

  5. I know I go through days like that, when I question everything I'm doing. And Lord knows I ate much too much pumpkin pie this week. I'm glad you realized why you were writing though; sometimes we just need a little reminder that we're doing things for a reason. :)
    Oh, and hey, I wanted to let you know I have an award for you back at my blog. :D


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